I had conversations with God as a child. People would dismiss and ridicule me for saying it. I decided that I must be deluding myself, and walked in illusions for many years. But it is impossible to change what is real, and has always been.
Beautiful Aaron and at the same time so sad to imagine the little boy’s connection to god being questioned. I want to hold all of the children of the world… that is my tormenting cycle. Tears through the process of coming home to ourselves.
Thank you being vulnerable enough to share this. It is very timely, as it seems many people are being committed for psychosis when they have a spiritual awakening. I had a spiritual awakening in 2011 that happened to coincide with me losing my house and therefore ending up homeless. That's probably one of the reasons I didn't end up in the psych ward. I didn't appear any crazier than a lot of the other homeless people, and my family members were far enough away to not have me committed.
What I went through was amazing, but incredibly confusing. I had somewhat of a foundation as I had been having mystical experiences since I was 3. But I was off the rails a lot of time, not understanding the difference between my ego and my higher self. I had the revelation, like many, that I was God, and like many I thought, at first, that meant my ego was God. This was compounded because I had never heard of nonduality or oneness, and thought I was the only person to have had this experience. I was fortunate to realize pretty quickly that that wasn't the case, but many people get stuck there. The revelation of oneness can be pretty intense.
Also, my husband was also experiencing a spiritual awakening, and whereas we handled it differently at times, it's easier to believe you are not crazy when someone else is experiencing a lot of the same things you are.
So there's a little of my story. Again, thanks for starting this much needed conversation.
Hi Kristina, thank you so much for sharing your experience. It is heartwarming to feel the resonance. My hope is that this article takes people out of blame, shame, or guilt and into love and understanding. Hence the title of my publication, we all have good intentions. It is my mission to help others (and myself) remember that. I think you will find other articles in my archive that will support you on your journey too. Sending love ❤️
Thank you for your warm response and for creating a space where these experiences can be shared and understood.
Your mission to move people out of blame, shame, and guilt and into love and understanding is so important, especially when it comes to experiences like spiritual awakenings that can be so misunderstood. That's a beautiful purpose for your publication.
I'm looking forward to exploring your archive and connecting with more of your work. Thank you for doing what you do! 💛
Thank you for intimately sharing your experience. Trust yourself and the voice within. This piece has really helped me to find faith inside and outside of myself.
This was so beautifully written and I saw so much of my own story in this. A story I haven’t yet been able to put into words. When I have more time I can’t wait to sit with the rest of your work. You freed something inside of me and brought me to tears. Thank you.
Thank you for this. I suspect a lot of people have had similar experiences.
I had several bizarre experiences on magic mushrooms where it seemed like I was communicating with God. Information downloaded into my brain that I don't think came from me (and which I later confirmed). Miraculous healing of several chronic health conditions -- I've been migraine-free for five years now. The feeling of absolute love and connection.
I think, or at least hope, we're on the brink of a widespread spiritual awakening. It seems like humanity is at a crossroads, and I hope we choose love.
I wrote about it here -- working on a book expanding on this story too.
I look forward to feeling this way. I have glimpses each day but I am still trapped in suffering loops. Honoring the grieving process whilst connecting to spirit and seeing the bigger picture.
I hope I can express how much your post has helped me. Today, I am a Grateful Recovering Alcoholic. Many don’t understand what that means, but in my program, we focus on acceptance, gratitude, honesty, humility, serenity, and much more.
Yes, I’ve made mistakes... some of my loved ones still won’t speak to me. But I know my higher power, whom I call God, forgives me, and through that, I’ve learned to forgive myself. I’ve come to understand I can’t change the past. Fear lives in tomorrow, but peace lives in today.
My mission now is the 12th Step: to help others. So I’ll close with a question to anyone reading this—do I seem “mental” to you?
I had conversations with God as a child. People would dismiss and ridicule me for saying it. I decided that I must be deluding myself, and walked in illusions for many years. But it is impossible to change what is real, and has always been.
Beautiful Aaron and at the same time so sad to imagine the little boy’s connection to god being questioned. I want to hold all of the children of the world… that is my tormenting cycle. Tears through the process of coming home to ourselves.
Thank you being vulnerable enough to share this. It is very timely, as it seems many people are being committed for psychosis when they have a spiritual awakening. I had a spiritual awakening in 2011 that happened to coincide with me losing my house and therefore ending up homeless. That's probably one of the reasons I didn't end up in the psych ward. I didn't appear any crazier than a lot of the other homeless people, and my family members were far enough away to not have me committed.
What I went through was amazing, but incredibly confusing. I had somewhat of a foundation as I had been having mystical experiences since I was 3. But I was off the rails a lot of time, not understanding the difference between my ego and my higher self. I had the revelation, like many, that I was God, and like many I thought, at first, that meant my ego was God. This was compounded because I had never heard of nonduality or oneness, and thought I was the only person to have had this experience. I was fortunate to realize pretty quickly that that wasn't the case, but many people get stuck there. The revelation of oneness can be pretty intense.
Also, my husband was also experiencing a spiritual awakening, and whereas we handled it differently at times, it's easier to believe you are not crazy when someone else is experiencing a lot of the same things you are.
So there's a little of my story. Again, thanks for starting this much needed conversation.
Hi Kristina, thank you so much for sharing your experience. It is heartwarming to feel the resonance. My hope is that this article takes people out of blame, shame, or guilt and into love and understanding. Hence the title of my publication, we all have good intentions. It is my mission to help others (and myself) remember that. I think you will find other articles in my archive that will support you on your journey too. Sending love ❤️
Hi Heart Warrior Mama,
Thank you for your warm response and for creating a space where these experiences can be shared and understood.
Your mission to move people out of blame, shame, and guilt and into love and understanding is so important, especially when it comes to experiences like spiritual awakenings that can be so misunderstood. That's a beautiful purpose for your publication.
I'm looking forward to exploring your archive and connecting with more of your work. Thank you for doing what you do! 💛
Awe thank you for receiving angel 🩵💜
Kristina thanks for ur share
Extremely uplifting.
You're so welcome. I'm so glad you found it uplifting!
This is very real and thank you. I don't have words right now for the impact this is giving me, in a very positive way. ✨️
Awe thank you, means so much to me to have an impact 💜
Thank you for intimately sharing your experience. Trust yourself and the voice within. This piece has really helped me to find faith inside and outside of myself.
Thank you Stephanie, yes learning to trust myself more each day.
This was so beautifully written and I saw so much of my own story in this. A story I haven’t yet been able to put into words. When I have more time I can’t wait to sit with the rest of your work. You freed something inside of me and brought me to tears. Thank you.
Awe, thank you for your reflection Stephanie. This means so much to me ♥️
Thank you for this. I suspect a lot of people have had similar experiences.
I had several bizarre experiences on magic mushrooms where it seemed like I was communicating with God. Information downloaded into my brain that I don't think came from me (and which I later confirmed). Miraculous healing of several chronic health conditions -- I've been migraine-free for five years now. The feeling of absolute love and connection.
I think, or at least hope, we're on the brink of a widespread spiritual awakening. It seems like humanity is at a crossroads, and I hope we choose love.
I wrote about it here -- working on a book expanding on this story too.
https://thecassandracomplex.substack.com/p/talking-to-god-on-psychedelics-part-one
I share this wish with you and believe it is so. We're in for a wild 5 years! Bringing earth up to heaven 💚
Hold you in my heart with great Love and reverence brave Soul/Human.
A true Heart Warrior...leading the way...breaking old patterns...bringing Truth...
I see the shift happening exponentially. Worth the challenges that many of us faced in being the leaders of change.🩵🩵🩵
I look forward to feeling this way. I have glimpses each day but I am still trapped in suffering loops. Honoring the grieving process whilst connecting to spirit and seeing the bigger picture.
I hope I can express how much your post has helped me. Today, I am a Grateful Recovering Alcoholic. Many don’t understand what that means, but in my program, we focus on acceptance, gratitude, honesty, humility, serenity, and much more.
Yes, I’ve made mistakes... some of my loved ones still won’t speak to me. But I know my higher power, whom I call God, forgives me, and through that, I’ve learned to forgive myself. I’ve come to understand I can’t change the past. Fear lives in tomorrow, but peace lives in today.
My mission now is the 12th Step: to help others. So I’ll close with a question to anyone reading this—do I seem “mental” to you?
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. Honoring each of our individual healing paths. You are not broken. I see you.
yep and yep....good for you. This made me smile.
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Thank you for sharing your story.
It's wonderful to see how you found peace and freedom. 🙏
Thank you Orla, it is a journey… but I am closer to my center each day 💜
A journey worth taking. Home to your true self. 💖
Yes yes yes!!
Thank you for recommending this read!
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This really resonates with me aged with me! Thanks.
So happy to hear it 💜
Good question.
I’ll let you know the answer if they ever let me out of here…. 😳🤫🤭
Forgiveness and living in the present are all we need. Thank you for this vulnerable share. So happy my post has helped 🩵